If you want to be good, you won't do it. Because learning == endless process of doing something badly relative against adult standards. Not being able to play blues guitar as well as B.B. King don't mean you ain't got the blues.
If you want to do draw, I can give you permission. Nothing will change until you give yourself permission to draw badly. Until you give yourself permission to draw for the sake of drawing. Until permission to take your drawing seriously. Until you accept the technical flaws of your technique. Accept that your flaws are what makes your art your art. Good luck.