Unconventional advice but I think if your mental health is at the point where you're posting on an internet forum asking this, you should probably do what you can to exit the situation.

If your financial situation permits it, it probably makes sense to walk away before your health and/or relationships deteriorate further.

If your financial situation does not permit exiting, I'd advise you to spend all of your non work energy in changing your situation. You can do it. You really can. Getting into Amazon is not easy, there plenty of places that would be ecstatic to hire you, but the hard part is finding them. That part is kind of like dating. Its definitely about fit - we are all human after all and trying to decide if we can work together.

Easiest way to explain this situation to future employers in my opinion would be "I had a health issue that I needed to resolve, but it is now completely resolved" would probably be enough to get me as an interviewer to be satisified on any gap in employment etc. People can tell when you lie, so this would be a good strategy IMO as it is truthful.

Best of luck and remember this will pass. You will figure this out.

Rooting for you friend.

There's no need to think badly of this. You're recognising that that culture and workload is unhealthy for your body and mind, and you're feeling like leaving. That's a good thing. It's no secret that working at Amazon has this effect on people. You don't have to site particular reasons why you wanted to leave. Just find a company that you would like to work at, and explain that you prefer their product / team / atmosphere / conditions / more (which will be true).

When in a similar situation, I went to therapy, which helps. Also exercise, I find a lousy feeling builds up when I don't exercise and magically goes away when I do. Also eat right, you have to feed your gut properly or it will affect your brain. Use the healthcare to take care of yourself. You'll need coping mechanisms where ever you go. I think life is just about figuring out those coping mechanisms as you go.

Not sure about Amazon, but a lot of large corporates are hot on this stuff and have helplines, private healthcare etc that should be able to help with this.

Check your benefits to see if there is anyone that can help you.

Also if you have a bad/abusive manager that is causing this, start documenting everything.

Your health insurance will include telehealth. Find a therapist, and talk to them and not the internet.

There are plenty of smaller companies in Seattle that are more chill than Amazon just go work for one of those after working at Amazon for 6 months.

It's a lot easier to find a new job when you already have a job. If you feel you need to leave, it would probably be best to hold on to the job until you find something new (probably at a smaller company), so you don't need to worry about explaining why you have no history or why you were only there 4 months.

Believe me, nobody will blame you for quitting Amazon.

My biggest mistakes in life were always hanging on for too long. I worked harder than anything I've ever worked on to keep my first marriage together. I did more work on my first marriage in 1 week than I've done in 20 years on my second marriage. Marriage is NOT supposed to be a continual drain. It us supposed to be an oasis of stability and strength.

At work, I've worked far harder on my failures than I ever did on my successes. Work is NOT supposed to be a continual drain either. It's supposed to have far more successful, energizing projects than death marches. It's supposed to give you a sense of accomplishment and pride, not continual shame and feelings of inadequacy.

I feel like the shock of adjusting to full time work is enough for most people to handle at once. Doing so at Amazon must be pretty tough (I worked there), depending on how intense your undergrad was.

I suggest working really hard at finding a new job. Spend every available hour for a few months while hanging on at work. There are many more human places to work out there, and truly not everyone is cut out for working at high pressure places. You deserve a chance to learn to work and be successful in a supportive environment. Be prepared to answer the questions about why you want to leave Amazon.

If things are truly unbearable you could see a doctor, get a diagnosis and then apply for fmla. During that time find a new job.

Rather than quit right now, I'd suggest you try to get a leave of absence. Amazon is a meat grinder, but they've got a leave policy, and it'll probably be better for you to take some time on a leave than to take some time unemployed.

start interviewing. favor remote as it will help your mental. when you get an offer you like, accept it and resign.

You should find a therapist that you mesh well with and talk to them before making any major decisions.

Just go talk to a therapist asap.

You have health insurance - use it while you are employed.

If this is more than job pressure, it might be harder if you don't have insurance and can't speak to a therapist.

Reading this, I wonder if quitting is the right thing do to. It could be, but it also might not be. How do you plan to reintegrate into work after quitting? What is the plan beyond quitting?

I also wonder what you have done to address anxiety before getting to the point of quitting? You don’t have to tell me, because I don’t need to know. I only ask, because there’s a lot a person can do to manage anxiety before quitting. Especially as you’re 4 months into a new job, and it can take between 6-12 months before a person feels settled into a new job. It is sometimes normal to feel overwhelmed at the beginning of a new job, especially after the novelty has worn off.

I’m not saying that your job is more important than your mental health (it definitely is not), I’m just offering another perspective which you may or may not have already considered.

Have you tried other things like; detoxing from social media, meditation, massage therapy, CBT, etc…

It sounds like you’ve worked pretty hard to get to where you are today, and quitting might be a knee-jerk reaction to an anxiety issue. The problem with anxiety is that it can be pervasive and creep into every facet of your life, whether you’re working or not. Sometimes the challenge is learning to manage anxiety while managing other life responsibilities.

Good luck. I hope you feel better soon.

If you where to change jobs, what kind of company would you rather work for instead of Amazon?

I feel like my company sees me not as a human but as a set of metrics to be judged and compared against.

How did you manage to graduate from college?

We are human resources. A little glorified but not too different from other resources.

What happens if you quit and you are still anxious and unemployed?

My advice is to keep the job but stop doing it well. Stop taking it seriously. Stop feeling like they are taking your humanity because you’re actually just taking money from them. With the extra mental space and time this affords you, work on yourself. Join activities, see a therapist, spend time outside.

You won’t get fired for a long time, if ever. In 6 months or a year you might find that you can handle taking the job seriously again or you may be ready to find a better one.

While there are certain managers who are balanced and look out for the team, more often than not Amazon has by osmosis attracted psychopaths. Increasingly the middle leadership and potentially the senior leadership are clinical psychopaths who recite and check off the employee growth metrics. My prediction is that in a few years it will implode like a neutron star because of a critical mass of psychopaths who won’t be able to tolerate each other.

You're a fresh graduate, bust your ass work hard, save up for your house. Then save up and invest 20% at $INDEX_OF_CHOICE! At Amazon level income you can do that in 2 years and pay off your house outright! Retire your parents!

Recognize you're in a position so many people and even you a year ago would kill to be in.

If you were say 30 the calculus is different, but at 20? Hell yeah crush it and grind dude! 3 years and you're SET.

Should you quit? Yes. Make room for people who are hungry and ready to work.